Tomorrow is day one!

We have had our fiest meeting and made our plans , tomorrow we start to put them into action!

We (myself , Nicki , Jo and Samara) are joining slimming world and starting our get fit mission! We are starting slowely by swimming twice a week , then we’ll add a yoga class and a weekly walk (taking kids and K9’s too) . Eventually we want to swim Monday and Friday do Yoga on a wednesday and a fitness class like bums N tums or Zumba on a friday (before we swim) . Our Slimmimg world group is on a Monday which ties in with swimming too . Im hoping the swimming and yoga will help my back , strengthening my core muscles can only make things better … I hope!

 Im seeing the Osteopath again tomorrow, im really hoping we get a major break through soon and things get back to normal. I wish she could just snap me back into shape!  If for no other reason than I need my sex life back! Mr C and I have made love once in about six weeks. Im sure for some couples thats normal , believe me i’ve been in relationships when that would have been an improvment! But for us this is not normal, We would normally have sex at least once a week. Generally its more like three times and when we’re both feeling very horny we can go every day, twice some days!

 Our sex life has been fantastic since the very start. I think it’s because we love each other so much , trust each other completely , turn each other on all the time and of course we are equally filthy minded! We talk about our sex life all the time, compare fantacies and talk about other people we find atractive. So im hoping that if I get my body back in order our sex life can get back on track too!

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Madness and pain

I’ve been out of action for nearly three weeks now. Im in so much pain one minute I can’t think straight then the pain subsides and I get stuck in to all the many jobs that are mounting up around the house. Next thing I know im in agony again.
It’s really starting to get me down now, my mood is really low infact. Im relying on other people for everything it seems , Mums from the playground are taking Cheeky to school and bringing him home for me , its lovely but I want to be out living my life again not sat here (when im not in too much pain to sit down!) waiting for things to improve.
The kids have been great through all of it , even though im snappy and short tempered and getting them to do so much more around the house… im sure they think im the mum from hell at the moment.

Pain ,pain go away.
Let me live my life my way!

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New years resoloutions.

House hold resolutions.

1. I’ve done a cleaning rota .
This is to help me stay on top of things and to try and cut out the fatefull phrase “I forgot it was my turn” from the kids.

2. I’ve also done a pet care rota to stop the moaning about who does what.

3. If every one follows the rota pocket money will be given!

Personal resolutions.

1. To wear make up once a week.

2. Join and go to the sliming club.

3. To buy and wear more pretty underware.

4. Go back to the gym and start a yoga glass.

5. Turn my garden back into my sanctuary.

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The good the bad and the ugly of 2012.

This year has been pretty shite!
In January I took the twat who fathered my eldest children to CSA because he refused to pay towards their upbringing.
Febuary he made a faulse report to the social saying Mr C was living here so I was investigated for benifit fraud.
In March I had the joy of attending the funeral of a boy I used to babysit , he was murdered , he was 20 years old.
In April I was verbaly attacked by my mother infront of her friends and completely humiliated.
I had a huge argument with my sister in which she called me a slut and said I was the most selfish cow she’d ever met.
In May my aunt died suddenly after a massive stroke.
June 7th my aunts funeral
In July I was told i’d been reported to social services.
August , social services started an investigation after my sister made allagations against me and Mr C , she said we locked the kids in the shed and had swinging parties.
In september we had our first full meeting with socal services and people from the kids schools.
October, G Girl starts being bullied at school.
November saw the close of the investigation against us with the social worker admitting that the claims were completely unfounded.
December was my poorly month, hospital stays and pain!

But this year has also seen loads of good things.
My brother and his family are back in my life. G Girl is growing into a beautifull young woman who is doing even better at school than last year.
Happy Lad has managed to settle in really well at high school and supprised us all with his sats results.
Cheeky boy is making great progress in reception class.
Im rediscovering my faith.
Mr C and I grow closer every day, we have such fun together we are the best of friends and have truely fabulas sex!

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New years eve party cancelled!

What a great end to a crappy year!
I’ve had to cancel the party because my backs gone again, for the last few days i’ve hardly been able to walk . Im on really strong pain killers which help but don’t stop it completely, they do give me the shakes and make my head all wibbley but you can’t have everything.
I’ve been trying to get in to see the chiropractor , the sexy Dr Ben. They finally called me back earlier today , they can fit me in on Thursday but Dr Ben doesn’t work there anymore! Gutted ! Whats the point in having a spinal problem if you can’t get man handled by the sexiest doctor ever!

I managed to get to the supermarket this morning and bumped into Mr H he’s an older man who I enjoy teasing from time to time . He told me he thinks i’ve lost weight since he last saw me. Always good to hear! He didn’t offer me a lift home though … maybe he’s got bored of playing with me?

Going to put my feet up now and hope no one turns up for this party.. not sure i’ve managed to let everyone know!

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Being stuck on the toilet is no laughing matter!

Yes you guessed it , I got stuck on the toilet!

My back has been bad for days but last night it decided it had had enough.

I had sat and watched a movie with the kids and when it finshed I was bursting for a wee. I had tears streaming down my face before I even got to the stairs , G Girl tried to help bless her and insisted on following me up the stairs incase I fell. I made it up them on my knees, but standing at the top sent waves of pain right through my core and reduced me to sobbing in agony. Eventually I made it and shut myself in the loo, sitting there sobbing quietly aware my daughter was still out side the door I realised something. 

I was stuck, I couldn’t move my legs so I couldn’t stand up. The pain was vibrating through my pelvis and down my legs I felt completely helpless . I had no choice but to ask G Girl to bring me the phone. I called Nicki my best friend in the world but I got the answer phone , there was no other choice I needed someone to think for me as my brain was swimming in pain and unable to process a reasonable plan. I called Mr C , I knew he’d feel terrible because he couldn’t get here (he doesn’t have a car at the moment) but I had no other option it was him or an ambulance and the idea of being helped of the loo by complete strangers didn’t thrill me! He calmed me down chatting to me and got me to put the phone on speaker so he could talk me through standing up. Slowely over about fourty minutes I managed to stand up and gradually get to my bed where I lay motionless on my tummy and listened to the love of my life telling me about his day. 

Sometimes we need help , from medical professionals, doctors or nurses but sometimes we just need to hear a voice on the end of the phone, Someone who loves us completely and will chat to us for half an hour while we slowley drag ourselves off the toilet .

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Merry Christmas one and all!

Well father christmas has been and gone. He seems to have brought everything my little darlings wished for and im happy to say they have been very gratefull and happy little souls!  The day started at six (not too early im happy to say!) thanks to G Girl who couldn’t bare to wait any longer and woke the boys up. We opened stockings together on my bed as we always do then ventured down stairs to see what the big man had left.
 Cheeky boy was so excited bless him and couldn’t contain himself once in the lounge , he let out an extatic cry and yelled “Mummy santa has been and emptied his sack all over our floor!” . I was a little dissapointed not to have another adult to snigger with!
 Wrapping paper was quickly strewn all over the room , to the sounds of “oohs” and “aarrs” not to mention the “oh cool” that came from Happy Lad at regular intervals.  I love watching their faces as the gifts are revealed . The realisation that the gifts they have wished for since writing the list for Santa weeks ago have actually come to fruition. 
 G Girl couldn’t wait to get her new Dr Marten boots in bright red out of the box and on to her feet. I seems like only yesterday I got my first pair and now my baby has hers. She was made up when she tore off the paper to reveal the hoody with Mickey mouse on the front that she was eyeing on Ebay but never actually mentioned . It’s not just God that moves in mysterious ways , us mums have to too!
Along with the eight new paper backs she recieved, that im sure she’ll have read by January she is also the proud owner of some new CDs and a lovely set of stick on mustaches!

Happy lad is glued to the XBox at every opertunity he gets thanks to the Sky Landers Giants game that Santa has bestowed on him (curtisy of the lovely game shop that gave me store credit in return for all the old games in May!) along with six new skylanders. He was thrilled with his lego sets although I think he’s struggling with the instructions on one set.

Cheeky Boy has been over welmed with everything , bless him. He couldn’t believe his eyes when he saw his fort (Happys old one) and his pirate ship (also an old one kept in the garage) . Santa gave him Jake and the never land pirate figures to go with his ship and Mike the knight figures for his fort. His favourite gifts have to be his box of wrestlers (second hand bought on line ) and his WWE traiding cards and folder thet Mr C gave him . As you can see half of his gifts have been played with before but when you’re four all that matters is that Santa came and your family love you … Oh and chocolate ! That is one of the most important things of all . Because as everybody knows christmas day is the only day of the year that children are allowed chocolate for breakfast!

I recieved gifts too…  A bike horn from G Girl – its red and flowery and very loud!
 A CD from Happy Lad – Paloma Faith (he’s got great taste in music!)
 A new fruit bowl from Cheeky Boy – its a large fish bowl shape , very cool! ( I bought it and wrapped it , he took the credit as only little boys can.)
 Books from Mr C – ‘Food for free’ and ‘Jams , marmalaids , preserves and curds’.
 A DVD also from Mr C – Sherlock Holmes (Jude Law and Robert Downey JR , oh go on then!)
 I also got home made chutney and fudge from my brother and his family and an unwanted phone call from my father. I let it go to answer phone and he left a message saying he wished we could all be together . Im glad we weren’t together… it was nice !

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